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Thursday, December 24, 2015

The Pleasures of Reading, Viewing, and Listening in 2015, pt. 23: Veronica Schanoes



The Pleasures of Reading, 2015
by Veronica Schanoes



This year has been a tumultuous one for me.  In June I delivered my son via C-section after a month in the hospital due to a serious placental abruption.  You’d think being in the hospital for a month would mean doing nothing but reading, but I found I couldn’t focus at all there.  There’re all the people coming in to check your vitals, various doctors, but mostly, it was an emotional difficulty: I just couldn’t become absorbed in anything as complicated as reading while I was so anxious.  Then the baby came, and the upshot is that I’ve read and seen a lot less this year than I usually have, so this list is going to be, of necessity, shorter than I usually aim for.  

The single best thing I’ve read this year is hands down, Cuckoo Song by Frances Hardinge.  This moving book is haunting, chilling, gripping.  In 1927 or so, a girl wakes up, unable to remember anything.  Her parents call her “Triss,” but her little sister Pen, the agreed-upon troublemaker of the family, screams at her, insists that she’s “not real,” and runs away from her.  Scissors turn on her and dolls talk when she’s near.  Slowly bits and pieces of her memory come back, but mysteries remain: what happened to her the night she turned up at home soaking wet?  Why is she constantly ravenous?  What is Pen up to?  And who is it her parents are frightened of?  As Triss tries to understand what is happening to her and what she is, she has the uncomfortable feeling that time is running out….I don’t want to give anything away about this story, so all I can say is that it is about sisterhood, what it means to be a big sister, what it means to be a little sister, and what it means to have your own identity.  As Triss and Pen are forced to form an alliance to save themselves and their family, they find that, as in all Hardinge novels, “good” and “bad” are not easy to differentiate and that those who seem the most helpful can turn on you in the blink of an eye…and that you may have to join forces with the person who hates you most.  I admire Hardinge’s writing immeasurably and wish I could give away more about the plot so I could talk about how deftly she interweaves folklore with a kind of Gothic novel about family secrets and secret places.  The relationship between the protagonist and Pen is one of the most moving I’ve read in quite some time (perhaps because my sister and I have had a rocky relationship over the years).  I can’t wait to read Hardinge’s latest, The Lie Tree.  

On quite a different note, I read Kenneth Kidd’s Freud in Oz: At the Intersections of Psychoanalysis and Children’s Literature at the beginning of the year.  In engaging prose, Kidd writes about the ways that psychoanalysis and children’s literature, as genres, have made use of each other and influenced each other.  He is at pains to emphasize the two-way nature of this relationship, and does so through chapters on fairy tales and psychoanalysis, children’s classics such as Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and Peter Pan, and the way contemporary picture books engage with trauma.  I enjoyed this and found it eminently readable, particularly for an academic book.  Also, Kidd has a good sense of humor, which comes through.

On the recommendation of Debbie Reese, who runs American Indians in Children’s Literature, I read Cynthia Leitich Smith’s Jingle Dancer, a picture book with gorgeous illustrations by Cornelius Van Wright and Ying-Hwa Hu, about Jenna, a Muscogee (Creek) girl, also of Ojibway (Chippewa/Anishinabe) descent.  Jenna wants to jingle dance at the upcoming powwow, but there is not enough time to make the four rows of jingles her dress would need.  This is a book that affirms the strength of American Indian communities and women’s communities and affective ties, as Jenna seeks help from numerous women in her life.  It also affirms the importance of orally transmitted stories and shows the people of Jenna’s community living modern lives, integrating their traditional practices and values with modern technology and commitments.  It’s a beautiful book.
 
Finally, I read Theresa Malkiel’s 1909 tract The Diary of a Shirtwaist Striker.  As  am an aficionado of both labor history and the history of New York City, the 1909 shirtwaist strike, when 20 or 30 thousand shirtwaist makers, almost entirely women, mostly immigrants, walked off the job and stayed out for months, forcing many, though not all, of their employers to settle, looms large for me.  The strike was an amazing achievement—demonstrating to patriarchal labor unions that women did indeed have the grit to stick out a strike, forging bonds between Jewish and Italian immigrants, and briefly winning the attention and support of upper-class women (those women were later horrified by the blatant socialism of many of the Jewish immigrants; the workers were in turn deeply irritated by the sight-seeing and tight-fistedness of the mink brigade).  Malkiel published her book as if it were a diary of a striker, but it was not.  Malkiel had been a factory worker for years, but married a lawyer.  She was a fervent socialist and the book is as much about the protagonist’s conversion to socialism as anything else.  Despite being a Jewish immigrant, Malkiel wrote in the persona of a US-born white, I suspect to make her character as “likeable” as possible to her readership, bypassing anti-semitism and anti-immigrant feeling.  Mary, the protagonist, comes to the realization that socialism is the only possibly way forward, and inspires her boyfriend, previously unsupportive, to do likewise.  She proclaims the brotherhood of all, Jew and Gentile, dark and light, which throws the book’s two glaring instances of overt racism into sharp relief.  An interesting book, and Françoise Basch’s introduction is a great introduction to the strike and the issues surrounding it, even if I didn’t agree with her on every point.



    
       Veronica Schanoes is a writer and assistant professor in the department of English at Queens College - CUNY. In 2014, she won a World Fantasy Award. Her work has appeared at Tor.com and in Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet, Strange Horizons, Interfictions, and Year's Best Fantasy and Horror 21. She lives in New York City and does not like cats. Her book of criticism, Fearless Children and Fabulous Monsters: Lewis Carroll, Angela Carter, and Beastly Girls, will be appearing in the near future. She currently lives in New York City.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

The Pleasures of Reading, Viewing, and Listening in 2014, pt. 25: Veronica Schanoes



The Pleasures of 2014
by Veronica Schanoes

This year, I had it figured out.   I started keeping a log at the beginning of the year, and writing down everything I read/saw/heard that I enjoyed, on the off chance Timmi asked me to contribute at the end of the year.  How clever was that?  How marvelous was my foresight?  Look at my planning!
            I kept this list on my beloved netbook.  I saved it regularly.  Sometimes I would open it and pore over it, reveling in my forethought and cunning. 
            And then my toddler godson accidentally dumped a glass of sangria into my netbook.
            That was not the disaster it might have been, as I had backed up almost everything I’d written onto a flash drive, but I’d never bothered to back up the list of cultural pleasures because, well, it wasn’t creative writing and it wasn’t scholarship, so it wasn’t a big deal, so what the hell?
            The good people at Computer Overhauls tell me that it would cost more to repair the netbook than it would to buy a new computer.  Six months later, I’m typing this on my old MacBook, which no longer recognizes the battery and has to be rebooted every time my godson trips over the cord or I decide I’d rather sit on the couch with my best friend than by myself at the table.
            So yet again I found myself in the position of trying to figure out if I have actually read anything in 2014, or seen any shows, or heard any music.  Was the year a wasteland?  All I could remember are endless episodes of Dinosaur Train and Daniel Tiger.  After cudgeling my brain tirelessly, I managed to recall these items making an impression:

1)        Cabaret: At the last minute, a friend called me up with a spare VIP ticket to Alan Cumming in Cabaret on Broadway.  I had never seen any incarnation of the musical before.  We went to the old Studio 54 and were seated at a small table about six feet from the stage and given a complimentary bottle of champagne, which was all very well and good, and how every evening should begin, as far as I am concerned.  The production was simply devastating—not the story of the tedious young lovers, because who cares about them, but the story of Germany’s descent into Nazism, the knowledge of what’s going to happen to Herr Schultz, and the final scene highlighting the futility of trying to go along with fascism to get along.  I admit to being somewhat surprised at some audience reactions—the audience laughed along to and then audibly gasped at the final line of “If You Could See Her Through My Eyes,” the love song the MC sings to a gorilla: “She wouldn’t look Jewish at all.”  Really?  You were all shocked?  You didn’t know that was coming?  This is a musical about the rise to power of the Nazis.  Whom did you think the gorilla was standing in for?  Well, I am Jewish, and as my experience with the next entry in my list shows, my perspective is perhaps more specialized than I assume.  Alan Cumming was amazing as the seedy 40-year-old MC trying to pander to popular mood and those in power.  My ideal production would play up Cliff Bradshaw’s desire for other men somewhat more, but that’s a quibble about a production that brought tears to my eyes.

2)        Life After Life by Kate Atkinson – I have been a fan of Atkinson’s for about a decade now.  I loved the magic realism of some of her early novels, particularly Human Croquet, and I find some of the Jackson Brodie novels quite lyrical; they are what I think Douglas Adams’s holistic detective novels aspired to be.  This novel recounts the story of Ursula Todd, born in 1912, died…well, that’s the thing.  Ursula dies many times: at birth, at the seashore as a child, beaten to death by an abusive husband, and each time she begins again, making different decisions, with the vaguest awareness that something…strange is happening, a sort of déjà vu when she encounters turning points, creeping up on her.  In one life she murders Hitler in 1932; she herself is summarily killed by his flunkies, so we don’t see how that particular endeavor plays out (I’ve always been suspicious of this trope—were Mengele, Himmler, Goebbels, not also monsters?  But indeed there was such a fervent cult of personality around Hitler, perhaps this is a case of a man making history rather than the other way round.).  In another life, Ursula visits Germany in the early 1930s and marries a member of the Nazi party; she kills herself and her daughter after hearing rumors of the Red Army’s depredations as it heads toward Berlin.  It is of this life Atkinson speaks when, in an interview published along with my edition of the book, she says that it was important to include the experiences of German (presumably gentile) civilians because, after all, “they had it so much worse than us.”  And this is the sentence that brought me up short.  “Us?” I thought.  They had it worse than us?  And then I realized that her “us” was British civilians and I felt a chasm open up between my perspective on the second world war and Atkinson’s.  Never, when speaking of that time, would my “us” refer to, say, American civilians, though that is what I am.  My “us” would always be Jews, and that will always temper my sympathy for what German gentile civilians suffered at the hands of the Red Army.  There is no excuse for atrocities, particularly those directed at children, but for the adults, well—these were the people perfectly happy to cheer as people like me, their neighbors, were defamed, vilified, stripped of rights, shipped off, and tortured to death.  So, not to put too fine a point on it, fuck them.  That does not mean, of course, that I condone the rape and exploitation of, well, anybody, but it does mean that my capacity for sympathy in this case is limited.  It means that it would never cross my mind to say of the German gentile civilian population that they had it worse than us.  My “us” in this context will always be Jews.  And I don’t know if I have a right to that “us.”  My family had been in the US for a couple generations by World War 2.  My grandmother, born in this country, had exchanged letters with family back in Klevan until, well, until letters stopped coming back, but no family of mine closer than that suffered at the hands of the Nazis.  But.  I know what the Nazis did in the towns my great grandparents emigrated from, and I know what they would have been only too happy to do to me and mine if they never had emigrated (well, without emigration, I wouldn’t have existed as my mother and father would never have met), and I use that “us” anyway.   I have rarely felt more alienated from a writer I loved than when I read that statement of Atkinson’s, and realized that in no life did Ursula Todd marry a German Jew; apparently Atkinson did not feel it important for her to explore those events.  It was a profound experience for me, even if not the one Atkinson had envisioned.

3)        The Girls at the Kingfisher Club by Genevieve Valentine – It was not all Nazis all the time for me in 2014.  This was the year that Genevieve Valentine’s novel resetting the fairy tale of the twelve dancing princesses in the speakeasies of Prohibition-era NYC (full disclosure: Valentine is a good friend of mine; I still love this book).  I read an early version a few years back and the manuscript made my “best of” the year list.  The published version is even better, the characters more finely drawn, their relationships more affecting and complex.  I only wished there had been more of the book!  The relationship between the two oldest sisters was one that I really hadn’t gotten when I read the manuscript, but it was a particularly poignant element of the finished novel.  It’s a story that deserves visual representation of the flashing dresses, lipsticked smiles, tapping shoes, smoky speakeasies, perhaps in cinematic form, perhaps in comic book form (Valentine is currently writing Catwoman for DC).  And Valentine writes an excellent adult protagonist—Jo, the oldest sister, is decidedly not 16 or 18 or 22.  She’s in her late 20s, and she feels older.  Trauma will do that to a person.  I recommended the novel before and I recommend it now.  And hey, now you can read it!

4)        A Face Like Glass by Frances Hardinge – Hardinge is my favorite living children’s literature writer, and I don my official mortarboard of authority to say so (my academic field of specialty is officially children’s literature).  But this book took me a little while longer to get into than usual; I don’t know that it had anything to do with the book, though I kept bouncing off the central conceit, which is that in the underground world of Caverna, where artisans make dangerous cheeses, wines that wipe and restore memory, and perfumes that compel behavior, children do not naturally mimic facial expressions.  All such expressions have to be purposely studied and acquired, and facesmiths are responsible for creating and teaching the faces, as well as setting the styles for faces.  Drudges, or the working class, learn only a few, while aristocrats have vast wardrobes of faces.  Into this world falls a girl from the outside, whose face moves naturally, and her presence wreaks havoc.  I kept trying to fit the premise into what I know of infant and child development and coming up with “But that just couldn’t happen!”  Eventually I had to hand-wave it for the sake of the novel (though I think I now have an inkling of how physicists might feel when reading books that include faster-than-light travel).  However, by the time characters have betrayed our protagonist and felt remorse while other characters, initially sympathetic, left her high and dry, by the time the complex politics of Caverna were being overturned by revolution, and a previously devious and self-serving girl had betrayed and sold out her entire immoral family to do the right thing, I was caught up in the adventure of it all.  Hardinge often writes of oppressive societies turned upside-down and shaken apart by clever, brave young girls.  Having been brought up by leftists, I suppose she’s writing my wish-fullfillment fantasies.

5)        Marvelous Transformations edited by Christine A. Jones and Jennifer Schacker – I reviewed this book for Marvels and Tales, the premiere fairy-tale studies journal, and I’m recommending it here because it is a fabulous text for learning the history of fairy tales and the state of critical thought about them.  Most texts of this sort take a narratological approach, where each chapter compiles variants of a given tale, say, “Cinderella.”  This book instead adopts a historicist approach, dividing its chapters by historical era.  The advantage here is that it includes tales that do not normally get anthologized, like stories from Giambattista Basile’s Pentamarone that do not have contemporary fairy-tale cognates (it is in Basile that we get our earliest European versions of Cinderella and Rapunzel), and allows us to make connections across tales as well as track generic changes from century to century.  The section on contemporary, post-modern work is particularly good, including pieces by Kelly Link and Nalo Hopkinson.  A particular pleasure for me, as I had not before read Hopkinson’s “The Bottle Tree,” a revision of Bluebeard that revolves around the relationship between colorism and self-hatred.  It’s a great piece in a great book, one that will definitely find its way into my classroom.  

6)        I’m going to end by talking about punk rock, the kind that makes you shout and jump and make sparks fly through the air and your blood fizz with excitement and possibility.  And really fucking loud, too.  I spent a good part of 2014 trying to see The So So Glos play as much as I can, because if all goes well, I’m going to give birth in late June, and I suspect my going to punk shows will be sharply curtailed for a year or two.  I have not felt like this about a band since I was a teenager. Punk rock, when it’s right, when it’s on, is like getting an electric injection of adrenaline and speed straight to the heart, your pulse races, and you might explode or die, and if you did it would be worth it, it would be well worth it, and you don’t care.  I can feel the bassline sometimes inside my ribcage, and it feels like being shaken into pieces from the inside. I’ll tell you what else I love about the Glos—they look like they’re having a tremendous amount of fun when they perform.  Their last album, Blow-out, came out in 2013, and it’s pretty fucking great.  I don’t know what the crossover between feminist spec fic and punk rock appreciation is, but I have at least two data points, myself and my friend Psyche, and Amazon once told me that "We've noticed that customers who enjoyed Maria Tatar's The Hard Facts of the Grimms' Fairy Tales also like Punk: The Definitive Record of a Revolution," so what the hell.  I fell in love with the Glos some years back when I saw them play a song about gentrification that cut right to the heart of the matter (“My Block,” off Tourism/Terrorism).  They’re older now, and have a manager and opened Lollapalooza this past summer, but seeing them is still loud and intimate and lovely.  (A few sentences of this last entry could previously be found on my LJ.  Only a few, though.) 

    
       Veronica Schanoes is a writer and assistant professor in the department of English at Queens College - CUNY. Earlier this year, she won a World Fantasy Award. Her work has appeared at Tor.com and in Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet, Strange Horizons, Interfictions, and Year's Best Fantasy and Horror 21. She lives in New York City and does not like cats. Her book of criticism, Fearless Children and Fabulous Monsters: Lewis Carroll, Angela Carter, and Beastly Girls, will be appearing in the near future. She currently lives in New York City.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

The Pleasures of Reading, Viewing, and Listening in 2012, pt.17: Vernoica Schanoes

Art's Emotional Extremes in 2012
by Veronica Schanoes

2012 is drawing to a close and the world has stubbornly and yet again failed to end. I can only be grateful for this persistence on its part, as my godson just had his first birthday at the end of November, and the more time I get with him, the better. But this does leave me with the difficult task of remembering what, if anything, I managed to read, watch, or listen to this year. I know that I have read Pat the Bunny and In the Night Kitchen many, many times over the course of 2012, and I am not complaining; they deserve their status as classics. But they seem to have chased all memory of any other cultural experience from my mind. I can recite large chunks of Maurice Sendak's oeuvre (“Where the bakers who bake until dawn, so we can have milk in the morn, mixed Mickey in batter”) to say nothing of Pat the Bunny (“Here are Paul and Judy. They can do lots of things. You can do lots of things too.”), but I'm having a hard time remembering anything else I may have read this year.

Fortunately, I have some written records. I have the notes I took when I was putting together the syllabi for new courses. I have posts I made to my LJ. And I have the list I started scribbling earlier this year, on the off-chance Timmi asked me again to contribute to “The Pleasures of Reading, Viewing, and Listening.”

And she did. So here is what I have been able to piece together.

(1) I am going to begin with horror and loathing: this year, for the first time, I watched Whatever Happened to Baby Jane?, a movie I had wanted to see since I was around 12 and first developed a strong interest in horror movies and their history. It is much parodied, as Bette Davis's turn as the former child star turned resentful alcoholic is often seen as an extravaganza of scenery chewing (“But you are, Blanche! You are in that chair!”). The plot concerns two aging sisters, Bette Davis and Joan Crawford, who plays a former film star, now (1962) confined to a wheelchair as the result of a car crash intended to be a sisterly homicide, trapped on the second floor of a decaying Hollywood mansion, and completely dependent on her younger sister.

Plenty of people see this film as a melodramatic display of over-acting.

I found it terrifying.

I found it terrifying because Davis is not over-acting. In the role of Jane Hudson, the former vaudeville child star unable to let go of her glory days, drinking herself into oblivion and tormenting her trapped sister, she is perfectly ghastly, evoking terror, pity, and repulsion. I suspect that those who see scenery-chewing in her performance do not have borderline personality disorder in their family.

Well, lucky them.

I do. My mother's mother had borderline personality disorder, and I remember only too well her rages, her cloying endearments, her wildly unpredictable behavior, and her crazed, unkempt appearance. It is very clear to me that Davis's Jane Hudson is in the same condition, and the helplessness of her sister conjures up for me my feelings of rage and helplessness regarding my mother's childhood. This movie is effective enough that I felt physically ill after only half an hour; I knew I should turn it off, but I could not tear my eyes from the screen long enough to do so. Davis's madness, Crawford's helplessness, Davis's murderous cruelty coupled with her sheer bewildered inability to process the world around her, so brilliantly and perfectly evoke what it is to have that kind of madness in one's family—the sadness for the afflicted family member, the doubts regarding one's own sanity, the feeling that one is in a battle for one's very survival. As a psychological horror movie, Whatever Happened to Baby Jane? is near perfection. Even though I correctly guessed the ending “revelation” twenty minutes in.

Well, it was obvious if you have it in the family.

(2) On to a more light-hearted movie: I found myself in the room while my boyfriend was watching the most recent Man in the Iron Mask, the one with Leonardo di Caprio. I have to admit that I avoided this movie largely because I cannot take di Caprio seriously—as far as I'm concerned, he looks like a somewhat dissipated twelve-year-old girl and the fact that he keeps getting cast as leaders of street gangs and suchlike is an enduring mystery. But this was simply a cracking good yarn. The plot “twists,” such as they are, are telegraphed hours in advance, but that doesn't affect the suspense and adventure of the thing, and I found the plight of D'Artagnan and the Three Musketeers, at long last on opposing sides, having outlived the swashbuckling world they made, touching. Gabriel Byrne, whom I almost always love, John Malkovich, and Hugh Laurie are excellent, and I was even impressed by di Caprio. Somewhat. At least, when he was playing the debauched and villainous Louis XIV. I was glued to my chair, I was convinced at one point that the Musketeers were dying in a blaze of glory and was heartbroken (I was wrong. Spoiler.), and I was satisfied by the way they made peace with the passing of their glory days. Good flick. I'm glad I handed the remote control over to David that evening.

(3) My field of specialty is children's literature, and in particular, children's fantasy and children's literature of the golden age (the Golden Age of children's literature is generally considered to be 1865-1926, or from Alice's Adventures in Wonderland to Winnie-the-Pooh). Those years gave us many of what we now know as children's classics: Alice and Dorothy both began their adventures then; Peter Pan lost his shadow, found his mother, and lost her again; Jo sold her hair and refused Laurie's proposal; the Bastables set out to restore their fallen fortunes; Toad escaped from jail and drove rather recklessly. But the Golden Age was a true flowering and many of the writers whose works dominated the field at the time, writers as prolific as they were popular, are now complete strangers to us. Mrs. Molesworth is one such; she died in 1921, and in her obituary, one paper wrote that England had not produced such a master of children's literature since Lewis Carroll. I had read her fantasy novel The Cuckoo Clock, published in 1875 and not thought it anything special, preachy, morally didactic, and a bit precious.

Twenty years of practice can make a difference, as this year, I read her novel The Carved Lions (1895), and found it both fascinating and moving. It is told in the first person by an older woman, now a grandmother, recounting her childhood, and an idyllic childhood it was, as she grew in the bosom of a warm, loving, and respectable-though-in-straitened-circumstances family. But her father is given a posting in South America, and she is separated from her beloved brother and sent to school. What follows is an account of the internal suffering of a child deprived of love and emotional support, surrounded by adults who, through no fault of their own, cannot understand her. You will not find here the villainy of Miss Minchin in Frances Hodgson Burnett's A Little Princess. Nobody starves Geraldine, or exiles her, or forces her to slave for her supper. She is just shy, sensitive, lonely, missing her parents and her brother. And eventually, unable to endure any more unhappiness, she runs away into a rainstorm.

Molesworth writes beautifully, not only showing a deep understanding of her protagonist's psyche, but also demonstrating a conscious consideration of how narrative is constructed, as her narrator repeatedly draws attention to what she is skipping, or what she doesn't remember very well. Too, the nature of time and its relationship to identity and memory is called into question. It was a deeply touching book, with none of the heavy-handed, simplistic moral didacticism of The Cuckoo Clock. The Carved Lions is out of print, but available on Google books. It's well worth tracking down a copy.

(4) This fall, I taught a course on historical novels set in New York City. Most of the ones I'd recommend I'd read before, but Kevin Baker's Paradise Alley was new to me. A simple summary would be that through the perspectives of a variety of characters, Baker tells the story of the New York City Draft Riots, which took place in July 1863, the same year that, over in Oxford, Reverend Charles Dodgson began telling the three Liddell sisters the story of a girl named Alice, who fell down a rabbit hole. Baker tells us a very different kind of story. He tells the story of Seneca Village, the black community that occupied the land appropriated by the city for Central Park, which was displaced and dispersed. He tells the story of the Great Famine in Ireland, and of the massive waves of Irish immigrants that took New York by storm. He writes about male violence against and abuse of women. And mainly, as the writer of any historically accurate tale set against the Draft Riots must do, he tells a story of a few days in the history of New York City when the essential ugliness of racism rose to the fore, and a rolling lynch mob of white men and women tortured black New Yorkers to death in the street, not even sparing children.

In July 1863, the city began to enact the first draft; the Union needed men with which to continue the war. They refused to open their ranks to black men, many of whom deeply desired to enlist. But they considered the Irish immigrants swelling New York City's population white enough to draft. All white men of age were entered into the draft lottery, but any man had the option of paying $300 instead of enlisting. Any man who could afford it, that is. As the Irish names began rolling off the tongue of the announcer, the flint of working-class resentment hit the steel of racism and the city literally burned. The mob, consisting mostly of Irish laborers, destroyed the draft office, attacked and burned down the Colored Orphan Asylum (the orphans had been allowed to evacuate before their only home was sacked), and lynched any black people unfortunate enough to be caught, including children. The rioters also attacked abolitionists and interracial couples.

Baker's novel follows the fortunes of a panoply of characters, particularly Ruth Dove, an Irish immigrant married to a black man, as she struggles to protect their children (her husband had been at work when the riots began, and his determination to get back home to them is another focus of the novel) and her neighborhood grows more and more hostile. Meanwhile, her sociopathic ex-husband has returned to the city after fourteen years and is determined to settle scores, a wealthy journalist finds himself witnessing the worst of the Riots, and the Irish brigade of volunteers is called back from the war in order to restore order to the city.

Reading Paradise Alley is harrowing. For the first and only time in my life, I felt ashamed to be a New Yorker. The power of this novel provides the only kind of justice left to the 119 people killed during the riots, the power of memory.

(5) Time after time, I pick up children's books or YA novels that look cool, but end up being disappointing. They have been beautifully produced, with amazing illustrations or extremely peculiar and fascinating photographs, and rag-edge pages or embossed covers or some such extravagance, and they are a pleasure to touch and hold and look at. But when it comes to the actual reading, my mind wanders, I flip to the next picture, I look out the window of the subway at the passing dark tunnel, I find myself not caring much about the protagonist or what happens to him/her, I misplace the book for a few days and don't much care, I am, in a word, bored.

And then there's The Replacement, by Brenna Yovanoff. It has kind of a cheesy design. The cover is done in silvers, and there's an Addams Family baby carriage with a mobile of sharp metal things (knives, scissors, etc.) hanging over it. It's meant to look ominous or menacing, I suppose, and it does succeed, but it also looks a bit cheap. But something about the book kept drawing me back to it, until I finally bought it.

I'm glad I did, because the production ain't much, but the book is amazing. It's about a town called Gentry, which, at first, seems to be much like any generic suburban town in America. Except it's an accepted part of life there that babies disappear, every so often. They disappear, and they are replaced by...things. Sickly, ugly, unpleasant beings that scream at the smell of iron, even the iron in blood, small creatures that usually die in short order, and are buried by grieving parents and neighbors, all intent on pretending that the corpse in the coffin is that of their beloved child, not the replacement, all knowing it to be a lie. The Replacement is told by Mackie Doyle, a sixteen-year-old boy grappling with the essential hypocrisy of the town, a town that ties scissors and knives to its babies' cribs to keep them safe, and never discusses why, while trying to keep his own secret, that he is not human after all, but a replacement who was cared for and nurtured, and has managed to grow to adolescence...but not might make it to adulthood if anybody should find out what he really is.

Teenagers are not my favorite characters—I have little to no tolerance for angst or young romance, and teenage boys in particular can be quite unpleasant for me to read about. But I cared about Mackie. I sympathized with Mackie. He was a fully fleshed-out person, with complex relationships to the people around him, a kid with friends and parents who love him and about whom he cares; a young man seriously turned on by Alice, an extremely popular girl who favors miniskirts and explicit flirtation, but drawn to Tate, an outcast girl whose misery equals his own because, you see, her little sister has disappeared. Or died, depending on which story you believe. And though Mackie tries to keep himself alive and as human as possible while sorting out his romantic feelings, the most important relationship in his life is with his older sister, Emma, who sat up one night when she was four and watched him be put in the crib in place of the baby who had been her brother, and stayed up all night playing with and soothing the replacement Mackie. And then, one day, Mackie meets the Morrigan...

Yovanoff's writing is brilliant and evocative, and her use of fairy lore is quietly intelligent and gripping to those of us who are well-versed in the literature as well as accessible to the reader who knows next to nothing on the subject. Humanity and monstrosity, and the difficulty in telling them apart are the themes that run through this book, and Yovanoff portrays them beautifully.

(6) I had the single best theatrical experience of my life this year. And when I went back, it was equally magical. I choose that word advisedly.

Then She Fell is an immersive, interactive performance based on Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking-glass and What Alice Found There. I have long been fascinated by Alice, ever since I too was about ten years old, and so I have read, watched, and played all kinds of Alice-based material, and most of it, I am sorry to say, is dreadful. Most theater in particular based on Alice operates on one of two emotional registers; either it is painfully whimsical and delightful!, or it is cloyingly, self-consciously, naughtily sexual. Neither one of these captures the emotional brilliance of the original piece, which is not delightful, but carries wonder and darkness, dream and nightmare, inseparable from each other. The dominant emotion Alice carries through Wonderland is frustration, until she grows angry enough to finally break out of the bizarre world of her own subconscious. Then She Fell, put on by Third Rail Projects in what was formerly the Greenpoint Hospital in Brooklyn, is the only piece I have ever seen to recreate that mixture as poignantly as Carroll's work itself.

In Then She Fell, the viewer/participant is led through a series of rooms on an individual track, sometimes meeting with other participants, sometimes alone with the actors, and sometimes simply alone. I was given a set of keys, some of which fit into locks I encountered along the way. I read carefully recreated letters, written with a dip pen on aged paper, from the Reverend Dodgson to Alice Liddell; I painted a white rose red; I took dictation from the Hatter and was measured for a hat; I sipped cordial with the Red Queen, who spoke tightly and seriously of the importance of protecting one's daughter. And I brushed Alice's hair while she told me about her dolls and asked me about being in love.

The joy of this piece is exploration and play; we have been trained to be entertained, to sit back and watch while other people tell us stories or perform. Then She Fell requires us to play, like we did when we were kids, or at least like I did. You can't, as a child, just sit and watch the other kids play house, or Star Wars. You have to be something yourself, whether that's the family dog or Han Solo, and join in. So I gave the Hatter advice about how best to approach Dodgson (“He's...idiosyncratic,” I said. “Idiosyncratic,” she repeated. “Yes. That's the word,” she agreed after a moment's thought.), gave her my hat size, and told her I liked fedoras. Because you've got to play if you want to be part of the story.

When I was a little girl, I kept a weather eye out for doors to magical lands, or magical talismans I might find on the street. I waited and waited, and never did I find my way to Oz or find half of an Egyptian amulet. I never made it down a rabbit hole, and no mirror ever blurred and melted away at my touch, allowing me through. As I grew older, I gradually gave up hope of finding that magical adventure. Then She Fell is as close as I will ever come, I think. And perhaps that is good enough. Then She Fell brought me to tears in places, and when I left the various scenes blurred and swam in my mind, and my memory of the specific incidents and interactions began to dissipate like mist, or like a dream. Like Wonderland.

I meant to write more—there were other movies I saw, other books I read. But I think this list, though only of six items, covers the extremes of emotion that art gave me this year—horror, wonder, excitement, sympathy. I think that is enough, at least for one year.

 Veronica Schanoes is a writer and assistant professor in the department of English at Queens College - CUNY. Her work has appeared in Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet, Strange Horizons, Interfictions, and Year's Best Fantasy and Horror 21. She lives in New York City and does not like cats. Her first book, Fairy Tales, Myth, and Psychoanalysis: Feminism and Re-telling the Tale, about tropes common to both feminist revisions of fairy tales and myth and feminist psychoanalytic theory from 1973-2001, will be appearing from Ashgate Publishing in the near future. She currently lives in New York City.